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March 2007
October 9th, 2006 06:02 am

so just now i was in the lounge doing ochem homework (and kicking ass at it), when some girl ran in through the lounge to the balcony. she must have been out there for at least 5 minutes, and it was pretty damn obvious she was crying. she then left, and then in a few minutes she came back in and went straight to the balcony, but this time with her phone. i then overheard the saddest conversation i have heard in recent memory. apparently one of her best friends died today, and oh man was this girl crying. not the light kind of crying but the heaving sob-type crying. and then i guess she went to the campus-sponsered free depression screenings a few days ago and whoever evaluated her told her she needed counseling. this girl can't come to terms with it and she's so deathly afraid of telling anyone for fear of them making fun of her. at this point, i quietly packed up my things and left, so i wouldn't hear more, and she wouldn't have to see me afterwards knowing that i overheard everything. i was extremely tempted to leave a note saying things like 'depression is not the plague' or 'if you need to talk come to room 1204', but i just couldn't bring meself to.

i just wish people wouldn't be so ashamed of depression. it's a naturally occuring ailment, and its not the end of the world as we know it.

even though she lives on my hall i still have no idea who she is. but she totally made me feel better about my situation.

because really, being overwhelmed with homework can't be as bad as that.

(the end.)

Current Mood: sad sad


October 4th, 2006 12:25 pm
What should i be for Halloween?

(the end.)

p.s. it's also supposed to rain today which means tonight might be First Rain! yay for nekkie people.

Current Mood: curious curious


October 3rd, 2006 03:52 pm
I'm horribly, horribly neglectful. Poor Livejournal. Whatever will you do w/o my oh-so-wonderful posts?
                      --prolly continue on just fine, but whatever.

So yeah. College. All-consuming. My Mondays and Tuesdays are just fine and peaceful, but my Weds (w/ a 3 hour Physics lab) and my Thursdays (w/ classes from 8-8) are pretty much pure hell. And I recuperate on Fridays.

I still have a shitload of homework to do for this week. I still have 20 more problems for ochem and only 2 more problems for Physics. But I have so much reading to do for History. my history class is interesting, I would just rather not do a huge amount of work for it. oh well, i'm taking it pass/fail.

My roommate this year is fantastic. She showers, talks, goes outside, and, get this, goes home every weekend. She lives in Salinas and works there every weekend. She also tells me whats going on during her spanish soaps so i can watch them as well. So yay this year for getting a awesome roommate!

This year I had to make an extremely difficult choice of choosing either Grey's Anatomy or CSI for my thursday 9-10 hour. I ended up going with Grey's because Spike replays CSI constantly. AND OMG MCSTEAMY WAS MCNAKED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11111111!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!*flails*!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!111111111111111111122!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!*dies*

*composes oneself*

I'm actually thinking about changing my concentration from Physical Chem to Organic Chem. I'm really enjoying that class, and find the homework fun. So yeah. OChem. Its where its at.

Welp, I assure you that I do, indeed, have a pulse. But I have homework and class at 6. So I shall update in the distant future...

(the end,)

Current Mood: crazy crazy


September 22nd, 2006 10:36 am
it is official.

i am going to die this quarter.

so. much. friggin. homework.

(the end.)

Current Mood: busy


August 30th, 2006 03:21 pm
it's funny how many times i think about writing an update, but then i never actually do. in all honesty, my updates would've been really boring. Observe a typical post that i would've written:

Hello all. how are you guys? i'm tired. work sucks. i really hate people. < insert some sort of story involving a bitchy costumer and my all consuming urge to stab them in the spleen >

< insert another paragraph partaining to absolutely nothing, but tries to be amusing >

i can't wait to go back to school. in all honesty, i am really looking forward to classes and especially ochem. < insert a whine about how i had to spend $470 on books and then blame the government for it >

Anyway, i should go... i need to take a nap.

(the end.)

Current Mood: chipper chipper


July 8th, 2006 01:09 am
oh man.

i know i can't cook, but c'mon! it's like 3 days in of fending for myself and i give myself food poisoning? what the hell.

in the throughs of dry heaving (amongst other unpleasant things), i finished watching the first season of Lost that i bummed from Caleb. It's an alright show, engrossing, but confusing and a lot of long pauses of people in the jungle staring around them while sticks are broken. honestly, i can't decide who i want to shag more, sawyer or sayid. but whatever. now i just need to meet up with caleb so i can get season 2.

in other unrelated news i bought a new ipod. i've been debating it for a while, and i finally got my paycheck and yeah... what really made me decide was 4th of July where i didn't have one of my closing reg people come in so we closed 1 person short and i ended up working 10 long painful hours. I started work at 5 that day and didn't get out until after 3. granted it was time and a half, so i made over a hundred dollars in one day, but still, i deserve a beautiful black 30 gigs video ipod. it's been shipped so now i'm just awaiting it anxiously.

i really should not have gone to see pirates last night. i saw it wednesday night and really enjoyed it. but then on thursday morning i woke up sick to my stomach and went into work to only be sent home an hour later. i felt better by night and i decided to watch pirates for the second time. big mistake. the movie was still good, but the fact that we were in the theatre with the entire female population of vaca pena not to mention we were sitting like 2 seats away from the CREEPIEST guy ever who would not shut up the entire movie even though he was sitting by himself. i was really pissed because the last (and the coolest) line of the entire movie was ruined by every girl screaming their ass off. oh well. i knew that would happen when i went to see any midnight show that had johnny depp.

anywhos. it's really lonely in my house. but i'm kinda glad my parents are in europe. gives me a break from them (cause lord knows i needed one).  i just wish that i had a dining hall or something to go to everyday instead of me having to cook and get myself sick.

at least i have orange sherbert with chocolate chunks.

i'm working tomorrow 5-cl, so come find me and say hello.

good night.

sleep tight.

don't let the bed bugs bite.

and if they do, feed them to the motherfucking snakes on the motherfucking plane.

(the end.)

Current Mood: okay okay


June 29th, 2006 10:14 am
my car was coned four times last night.

i have no idea who did it.

although i suspect 3 different groups who had some late night plans last night.

what am i to do with all these cones?

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Current Mood: confused confused


June 9th, 2006 02:53 pm


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Current Mood: depressed depressed & old


June 8th, 2006 11:43 pm

In less then a week, I'll be done with my first year of college.

Honestly, I can't wait to get home. But at the same time, I really love college and want to stay.

Things I will miss:
no curfew
never having to cook
never having to do dishes
things to do in town
the exercise i'm forced to do while walking up and down hills
the good feeling when you've completed all your homework and have the rest of the day to do nothing
the good feeling when you're done will all of your classes and the rest of the day to do nothing
the ability to sleep in
the laid back vibe of Santa Cruz
knowing that when i check my mailbox, everything is for me

Things I will most certainly NOT miss:
my roommate
not having my car at all times
having an asthma attack every time i head up to the meadow
having piss/pubes on the toilet
not having a comfy couch to nap on
buying all my own food to snack on (minus the times when i'm home and get food from mommy)
pot smoke
alex down the hall
the bed
smelly hippies who think its mandatory to fit the stereotype of typical Santa Cruz hippies and make their own hideous clothes and not shower
not having in-n-out

I highly doubt that I will update within the next week seeing how i have 4 finals (1 tomorrow at 8am) and i need to pack. Luckilly, all my finals will be done by Tuesday night and I will have all of wednesday to pack. I come home Thursday mid-afternoon.

It's gonna be really weird to be thrown back into life in Vacaville.

I've done horribly this quarter. I am not looking forward to grades at all. I really don't know what happened, but I can't take tests properly this quarter. The homework is fine and I study my ass off before midterms, but I just can't function with tests. Oh well. I know that I will do better next year, and everybody has a bad quarter...so this is mine. Bleh.

Well, I'm gonna look over my notes for my chem lab, and then i'm gonna go sleep.

Good night.

Sleep tight.

Don't let the bed bugs bite.

And if they do, shout NO, punch up and scrape down. (PE safety day!)

(the end.)

Current Mood: determined determined
Current Music: Tear You Apart | She Wants Revenge


June 2nd, 2006 01:52 pm
okay i lied. my last post stated that today was also going to suck. as it turns out, it's not that bad. granted i have many a hour of homework ahead of me, but then i realized that after today, i don't really have to worry about homework, instead, just finals.

and chocolate has made this day better.

(the end.)

Current Mood: drained busy busy